Spirituality

11:46:48 AM Ktn: so like
11:46:56 AM Ktn: I’m not really a religious kind of person
11:47:09 AM Ktn: but I think myself as spiritual
11:47:13 AM Ktn: and the last two nights
11:47:18 AM Ktn: (last night and the light before)
11:47:40 AM Ktn: I dreamt about my grandpa and grandma either passing away or visiting them after they passed away
11:48:02 AM Ktn: and I’d wake up with tears running down my cheeks
11:48:02 AM kvnguyen007: wow
11:48:14 AM Ktn: like the night before was my grandpa, and last night was my grandma
11:49:03 AM Ktn: and in the dream, I asked my grandma if she was well, she said yes.  I then asked her if she was happy, she said yes.  then she said something else, but I just started crying in the dream so I couldn’t make it out
11:49:06 AM Ktn: then I woke up
11:49:25 AM Ktn: my spiritual side makes me believe that my grandma was communicating with me
11:49:28 AM Ktn: and it makes me kinda happy
11:49:45 AM Ktn: you know, finding out that your grandma’s in a better place and is happy
11:49:49 AM kvnguyen007: yeah
11:50:13 AM kvnguyen007: I mean having those dreams on consecutive days?
11:50:21 AM Ktn: yeah
11:50:48 AM Ktn: and the death of my grandparents were the only deaths I’ve experienced so far in my life

Yeah, it’s like I said.  I’m not a particularly religious person at times, but I do have a spiritual side.  For the last past two nights, I’ve been having dream about my grandparents–both of whom have passed away.  My grandpa passed away during summer after my junior year in high school.  My grandma passed away less than 6 months ago around Christmas (or it might have been ON Christmas Day even).  In any case, I am fuzzy on most of the details in my dream and can only really recall the details from my dream about my grandma because it was most recent.  Further I didn’t try as hard as I am now to remember my the dream about my grandma because I just thought that it was just a dream.  But after having a dream about my grandma, the next day in succession, I’m inclined to believe that these dreams are significant in ways that may not be readily apparent.

I think in the dream about my grandpa I was witnessing his death.  From what I can hazily remember, I’m sure that the death that I witnessed in the dream was very different from the way my grandpa actually died.  This was on the night of April 30th/morning of May 1st.

In the dream that I just woke up from not 30 minutes ago (night of 5/1, morning of 5/2), I was with my mom and we were speaking to my grandma.  In the dream, I realized that my grandma was dead and that she somehow came back to visit us.  I think I sat before my grandma in the seiza position.  My mom told me to ask my grandma if she was doing well, and I did.  My grandma said that she was doing well.  My mom then tells me to ask my grandma if she was happy, and I did.  My grandma then smiled and said that she was happy.  It was at that point in the dream that I’m hit with such a powerful wave of emotion that I start crying (in the dream).  My grandma then says something to me and my mom (or maybe to me?), but I can’t for the life of me remember it.  Perhaps it was something important, perhaps it wasn’t…I don’t think I’ll be finding the answer to that anytime soon.  But I am inclined to believe that my grandma was communicating with me.  I honestly believe–and this is somewhat of a cognitive dissonance (I’m sure I’m using that word wrong) contradiction to my personality as I feel that I am someone who is very grounded in reality and not significantly spiritual to begin with–that my grandma was communicating with me.  And she has told me that she’s doing well and that she’s happy.  As I said above to Kev, this makes me happy, or at least gives me a great sense of peace of mind.  Knowing that one of your grandparents has found peace and rest and is happy and in a better place…well, what more can you ask for?

This can’t be just a coincidence–even though people in these sorts of situations say that all the time.  Two successive nights dreaming about the deaths of the only two people that I was ever close to who had passed away.  Whether it’s rational or not, I am compelled to believe that at least my grandma is in a better place (because she explicitly confirmed it in my dream).  As for grandpa, I don’t remember too much, but I truly hope that he’s with my grandma and that they’re both truly happy and at peace together; watching over our family.